I've got a flashlight & a box of batteries.
This is the face of a woman who has recently walked through some of the darkest of tunnels life can offer and found that her old way of lighting it on fire by herself no longer worked.
This is the face of a woman who lives in pure delight these days because she asked for help.
I’ve been through a lot in my life, yet the last few years have felt like a full-on trudge through hell and back. From losing friends and clearing deep trauma to looking intensely at my relationship to myself and my husband, it feels like nothing is the same as it once was.
Then came the sudden swing of hormones along with finding out that my reality wasn’t real at all. That’s when the feeling of utter despair caused me to want to harm myself and those I love. My nervous system was shot & my heart felt broken. I honestly didn’t think I’d make it. (and I’m not being dramatic.)
Yet here I sit in a pair of mushroom overalls with some incense floating through our Cleveland airbnb. We’re in the middle of a 5-week road trip where we have the windows open & the birds are singing joyfully despite the cloudy days they’ve had - and I am in full delight.
Delight means "a feeling of great pleasure or joy.” And I can tell you honestly that it’s not from something I am experiencing… it’s a true sense of settledness in myself.
My soul, my body, and my mind are aligned.
My relationship is the best it’s ever been.
My heart is bursting at the seams.
My spirit is quiet & at peace.
Why? Because I asked for help.
I admitted that I couldn’t do it alone & although I felt like a total failure, I felt fully seen by someone who had been there themselves.
From functional medicine doctors to conscious friends, I showed them the truth and they reflected it back to me. Painful, loving, powerful truth. And I was willing to take their medicine because I knew they only wanted the best for me.
From plant medicine and breathwork to hormone replacement therapy and honest conversations, I did the work and can honestly say that I am officially in a space of full-on delight these days.
These days, we are sold a belief that we have to be independent, do things for ourselves, and filter ourselves to make it seem as if our lives are perfect, yet our ultimate truth as humans is that we need each other.
I am living proof that asking for help can be the most powerful tool in your toolbox.
If you cannot see in the dark, I’ve got a flashlight & a box of batteries.
I didn’t walk through the darkness to tell you how to do it alone because I sure as hell didn’t. I am here to stand with you, walk alongside you, and help you find your own way through.
Your only job is to ask. Ask me, ask a friend, ask a neighbor. We want to help you... so let us.
Sending you so much light & love as you navigate this crazy, delightful world. We can do this together.
xoxo
Melanie Spring